The murders in Cheshire, CT this week have had a profound impact on me. What sense can be made?You're sleeping in your home. Hours earlier you kissed your daughters goodnight as well as your wife. At 3 am, two scumbags break into your home and the next day you are in the hospital, your house is burned down, your wife has been strangled to death and your daughters have died of smoke inhalation. Yet the two scumbags are alive and sitting in a jail cell. You worked hard to get a medical degree. You have created a stable, two-parent home for your two girls. One of your girls just graduated from high school the month before and she was slated to go to your alma-mater next month. This was the last full month with your oldest before she was to go off to college. This made you melancholy but you were still excited for her. You and your wife adored your daughters.
At 3 AM you were in a deep sleep, planning to get up to go to work and meet with your patients. Now your wife and daughters are dead and your home burned. You are sitting in a hospital bed recovering from serious injuries you sustained from a beating. What do you do now?
I look at the picture above and see your arms around your daughters and the love you have for your daughters. I see the hope for their futures. I see the dream of dancing at their weddings with both of them. I see the joy of seeing your oldest graduate from your alma-mater. You are proud of your oldest daughter's tireless fundraising for multiple sclerosis. You dream of your daughter's kids calling you grampa. What do you do now?
When you finally go back to work what is your first thought when you see your pictures on your desk? The awkwardness that your patients feel - suddenly their issues are not as big. At the end of your day what do you look forward to doing? Where do you look forward to going? What do you do now?
Do you kill yourself? Do you live day to day until the pain wanes enough for you to actually live another day? Does God immediately put people in your life to sustain you? Will there actually come a day when this tragedy actually brings something positive in your life. I don't see how, especially now. Maybe we will know in 20 years, when you should be retired, enjoying your grandchildren. What do you do now?
"Now" is just a 24/7 emotional pain beyond anything any one man should be dealt.
I am praying for you sir.
1 comment:
Dear Sir,
As a personal friend of the Hawke family, I would like to thank you for your beautifully written article and for not trying to find a way to connect Bill to the murders of his girls. It was such a relief to read what you have written after reading some of the awful things other "bloggers" have said. Please continue to pray for him, and the Hawke family....it is all that we can do!
Thank you again and God Bless you!!
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